Saturday, November 12, 2011

newly pregnant thoughts & feelings

Hmmm. Where to start off? Maybe with the fact that I already can't stand my future mother-in-law.  Nooo, that's a little harsh.  Okay, how about with how I'm feeling!  As you may or may not know, my younger sister just had her baby three.five weeks ago, so for the past nine almost ten months my family and I have been living all things pregnancy and babies and for the past at least four weeks I have been experiencing all things pregnancy, except I didn't know it.  Well, now I totally do.  I don't want this to sound like whining but remember ya'll this is totally new to me, so bear with!  This is how I feel:

  • tired, oh my goodness, so freakin' tired!
  • gassy, is that tmi? 
  • sore up top - ya'll know what I'm talking about? Ouch! 
  • mild, never-ending headaches. Sweetness.
After listing those I think it's important to note again, I am not whining! I know that the worst thing would be for a woman to read this who is desperately trying to have a baby, who would give anything to feel this way! I am thankful for these feelings because they are a constant reminder that baby is growing. Even though this was anything but planned I am still eternally grateful that God has chosen to give this sweet baby to me.  

.Some random thoughts.

I really wish my boys mama could get her head outta her rear, I want to like her and so does Frank (her own son!) but she makes it SO difficult.

How am I pregnant again?

Can I please have a girl?  I already have the very best name for her picked out.

So thankful that Frank is letting me name her all on my own if "its" a she, so kind of him!

If we are having a boy, naming him will be difficult, babe likes old fashioned names, I don't!

I care so much about the fact that I am letting people down.  I am no longer the "perfect" girl who never steps off the beaten path.  I don't want to care.  I want people to accept the fact that this was an "accident" and be loving and supportive of us.  I am sure this is how it will be, I'm just psyching myself out, I have a tendency to do that.

Why is it that everything I confide in my sister, she tells our dad?  It's so weird to me.  Can't a sista keep a secret? Hello!

My boy is being the sweetest most supportive person he could possibly be.  I am so very thankful for this.

My first doctors appointment is this Thursday! I can't wait to find out how everything is going and how far along I am.  Something tells me a bit longer than four or five weeks (can you saying growing stomach already!?) but we shall see. 

Please pray for my sweet baby that he/she will grow and progress normally.  I greatly appreciate it.

xoxo

5 comments:

  1. You will be in my prayers, congrats!

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  2. congrats! i am pregnant now, too, with baby #2... it's quite a journey; enjoy it :)

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  3. You'll be in my prayers. When we have a baby if it's a girl I get to name it, if it's a boy then hubby gets to. And really, it's ok that you're pregnant a little earlier than planned, God had his plan for you.

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  4. Aww...I think everyone has the feelings you're having. Its awesome of you to share this. Praying for you! New follower here. Would love it you would share this at my linky party :) Im sure their are other women out there going through the same thing and would to see your blog. http://everything-underthemoon.blogspot.com/2011/11/bedazzle-me-monday-8.html

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  5. I know this is a little bit of an older post of yours but I just got stuck reading all the ones before this and decided to finally comment. I just found out I was pregnant too. Its exciting and nerve wracking all at the same time. I will keep you and your little peanut in my prayers. Keep mine in yours. (Its nice to have other mommies to be blogging about their experiences too.)
    P.S. About your symptoms ... dont be worried about the TMI ... I am TOTALLY getting that one too! So embarrassing!

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