Monday, July 30, 2012

Dear Cooper // Week 3

Cooper,

I think I'll say this every week, how are you already three weeks old? It's gone by so quickly, I feel like I'm just barely grasping on.  Am I enjoying each second like I should be? Will I have any regrets? I hold you more than I probably should and I take more pictures than I would like to admit to, but is that enough? Your life is so precious to me, I want to remember and take in every aspect of it. Our third week together has been a lot like the first two, minus the hospital and doctors visits.  We did a lot of cuddling, a lot of visiting Nanny and Poppy's house and even paid a visit to the Stones! Addison is so in love with you and will exclaim "Biddy's baby" over and over again.  She gives you kisses on your head against her mama's instructions and kisses on the feet as well.  We don't want to rush time by any means, but your Aunt Kelsy and I cannot wait to see the way you two will interact when you are a bit older.

You are still wearing size newborn clothes and I am really kicking myself in the butt for not buying you many newborn outfits.  I was pretty sad to have to put you in the same outfit twice within two weeks.  Don't worry though, once you are able to wear 0-3 month outfits, you are all set! Mama hooked you up!  You are the king of fighting sleep and will go four or five hours without even taking a tiny cat-nap.  It is astonishing.  I would probably be a little less okay with it if you cried from sleepiness, but you don't, you just look around as the bags under your eyes get bigger and bigger and your eyes get redder and redder.  I think your favorite thing to do is eat,  your second favorite thing is to be bounced by me and your third favorite thing is rocking in the glider.  You are slowly getting more comfortable with your swing and have even taken a couple of short naps in it, but it isn't your favorite by any means.

You are a jumpy little baby and will throw both of your arms up if the movement is too sudden or you hear a loud noise.  It is cute but you wake yourself up, which I don't like! Sleep is a precious thing and I try to keep you sleeping for as long as possible, since getting you to sleep is not always an easy task!  I am so proud of you always, but especially during the night.  I don't want to jinx myself, but you have yet to have your days and nights mixed up.  For us this means that you wake up to eat every two hours BUT you go right back to sleep after eating.  I love this!

I love the long hair on the back of your head, I love your peeling skin, I love your little ears, I love your cute belly button, I love your long fingers, I love your dark, curious eyes, I love your long skinny legs that you curl up when I cuddle you to my chest and I love your barely existent eyebrows.  I love you so much Cooper James, so, so much. You have changed my life so dramatically, so positively.  I'm destined to do a lot of things, but most importantly to be your mom.  I'm so lucky.

I was watching a show this week on TLC called "I'm having their baby" and when one lady was giving birth it took all I had to hold back the tears.  Twenty-two days ago I gave birth to you and it feels like it was so long ago.  These twenty-two days have gone by so fast, but labor feels like it was forever ago.  I hate that, it makes me so sad.  I've lost all of my pregnancy weight and I feel so normal, it strange to think that only twenty-two days ago I was in the worst pain of my life and then out you came and everything was perfect. I have you as my reminder of pregnancy and labor but I almost wish I could experience being pregnant, being in labor and having you all at the same time.  I'm already missing all of the time that has gone by.

I love you.

Mama






xoxo

2 comments:

  1. Oh my goodness - you have to link-up this post! Pretty please?! http://songbirdsandbuttons.blogspot.com/2012/07/baby-bird-letters-link-up.html

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  2. I remember people telling me not to hold Jasper too much, but I'm glad I didn't listen!!! :) They are only so little for a short amount of time & if you want to cuddle him, DO IT! There will be many times when you wish you could go back to the new born days--- I know a lot of people say they don't, but I lived the newborn stage!! :) I miss my man being so little!!

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