Wednesday, July 4, 2012

Losing My Patience

The past 24+ hours have been something comparable to hell.
Or what I think hell would be like anyway.

For the past week I have been having regular BH contractions.
Nothing painful, just the normal tightening of the stomach.  

Yesterday morning I woke up at 2am in pain.  Hmm labor?
I couldn't go back to sleep. Anxious, nervous, in pain.. you name it.
I had my 38 week appointment yesterday where the doctor decided to strip my membranes.
I was 2 cm and 75% effaced.
I continued to have the contractions I was already having but they got a bit more painful.
I was sure that going on a long walk (3 miles) and bouncing on the ball some more would push me over that ledge.
I was able to fall asleep last night but woke up at 3am with serious contractions.
They made me realize that what I was feeling yesterday but nothing compared to this. 
Labor! Hooray!
NOT.

After an hour and a half of regular painful contractions they got less painful to where I could fall back asleep.
I wake up at 9 am this morning and I'm still having contractions.
They are killing my back, just like yesterday.
They are not progressing.

I am so frustrated.
I would be fine with him not coming yet.  I mean we're 2 weeks early.
I am not fine with the constant teasing.
I am not fine with the way my stomach feels right now.
It hurts while having a contraction (obv!) but also hurts after from all of the contracting.
I just want to know what the heck is going on. 

Say a prayer for me!
These contractions need to either quit all together and I will go back to semi-patiently waiting or they need to pick up. 

Happy 4th of July.

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