Monday, January 28, 2013


I'm one of those people that thinks that everything happens for a reason. 
I believe in Karma.  Good and bad.
I think that there is a plan for us.
We have a destiny.

In the hardest of moments when Cooper is screaming and I don't want to do it on my own,
when I'm ready to throw up my hands and call it quits,
I try to remind myself,
there is a greater good.

I allowed myself to imagine today what it must be like for those who don't believe in anything bigger.
I imagined that life in that mindset must be so hard.
To think that bad things are happening and not being able to confide in the creator himself,
I just can't imagine.
I think it would be lonely.
You can have your parents, your friends, your coworkers, your sisters
but they don't compare.

I'm not "super religious", but I'm religious.
I attend church.
I believe.
I don't believe in pushing my beliefs on you.
I think the "super religious" can't accept that others believe differently than they do.
That's not me and that's not the point of this post.
I just think it's good, it's comforting, to believe in something bigger.

The days are still hard, the nights are still lonely but,
my destiny is unfolding and I know it's going to be beautiful,
it's going to be full,
and it's going to be bright.
I know this because I believe in something bigger.



  1. Ah I've been so conflicted about my own beliefs these past few years. I used to no so sure about what I believed in but now, not so much. I envy you with your certainty and the hope and optimism it brings.

    1. You will find your way, I'm confident of it.

  2. How beautiful this is. Thank you for the reminder of grace, and for your grace in reminding us.