to be this little guys best friend right now, the person he depends on most, the food source, the water source, the person who keeps him clean, the entertainer, the teacher, the soother. it's amazing to think that since he grasps nothing about God or the fact that many people will play huge roles in his life, i am his world. for this short time i am everything to him.
few things in life are this good. his innocence, his energy, his love. he radiants purity. pure happiness, pure sorrow, pure frustration, pure affection.
to not be a mom sounds like the very worst thing i could ever imagine.